ERUL AHBENG

Awesomazing !

2010-09-08T02:39:00.003+08:00

Hello people !

See that picture above ? Lawakan si mangkok ni ? ahhh , ni la matair aku . haha ! sorry , i panggel you mangkok . hahaha ! mampos aku nanti dia tumbok2 . -.-

I love you , dear.

Updates;

Just now i got exam at 9am to 10.30am . after exam , i met baby near her school . because she got her "N" Level at 2pm . then at 2pm , went to hougang plaza . play billard with bear and matiin . lama tak nampak si matiin tu , tetap giler jugak .

After billard, went back to baby's school to meet her . then slack awhile with all of them . bear , pipit , iman , sayap , nad , baby , su , syahsyah & many more . -.-

then head home to break fast. sent baby home , then i go home .

Matiin ckp date aku cool shit eh bro ? haha ! 08.09.10 , cool eh ? ahahaha ! -.-

I love my piggy <3

Behind those smiles

2010-09-02T01:09:00.005+08:00

Hello readers. Sorry for not updating.

Here's one for you all folks ;

Learn to cherish others. Family , Friends , Soul mates , Boyf / Girlf , Everyone .

Friends. I don't know if I'm needed or not . I'm getting what I don't deserve from my friends . Do you all realise that ? Do you all know how hard I'm going through my problems ? Yes , what's done is done , but come to think of it , I shouldn't be fucking carry all my friends burden with me . Am I too kind ? I help others , but do they try to help me ? I don't think so . Some even add to my problems . I'm not pin-pointing at anyone , because eventhough after what happen , I still regard my friends as ONE FUCKING BIG FAMILY . I get nothing in return , only problems .

Learn to cherish, my friends . Don't take things for advantage . What are friends for ? If all of you can't fucking carry my problems , then let it go ! I took the initiative as friend to help others. I get BULLSHITS in return. One thing , I don't need a fucking sympathy or a friend that takes their own friend down ! It's your choice to be with whom you regard as Friend , but the meaning behinds it is way too deep . Think people . Why bother to look for your friends , when they are not looking for you ?

UPDATES ;

I'm on bail till the 13th of Sept. Pray hard nothing happens. Court date and number are not confirmed , all relies on my IO . See what he gonna say on the 13th . Thanks for those who have been there for me . Family , brothers , friends especially Ajaq. Girlfriend ? Nehh, shouldn't step into that :)

Lucky I'm not into love :)

2010-08-23T00:50:00.003+08:00

Random pictures . Bored . And I'm hungry . haha !

Aku nak dengdeng !

hahaha ! chat ngan ayu boleh pecah perot . giler peh kecik . haha ! tegor orang dah itating . -.-

abeh member ada hati nak muka nampak tua ! hahaha ! sekel kang ! backflip nanti ! hahah !

syahsyah kena kacau ngan FreddTeddy ! HAHAHA ! tak nak la ! abeh complain . Erul tak tau pape eh . sorry .

So updates ;

Slack . Usual faces . haha ! tapi kali ni ada Suhada and Syahsyah . haha !

boring ah . tak tau nak ckp ape lagi . dah bye !

Bazaar Fanatics

2010-08-22T00:41:00.002+08:00

Went bazaar on the 20.08.10 . Best :)

Total manpower was 13 people . tak expect ramai gitu . haha ! First, kita reach there at 6pm gitu . then gerak gi Geylang Pasar Baru . Makan pat sana . cari tempat dudok untuk 13 bontot . hahaha ! Kita makan pon dah kecoh2 -.-

Then lepas makan , proceed grandlink . jumper brother2 tersayang ku . haha ! Paiseh tak lepak sangat ngan korang . one day ok bros. haha :)

Then kita karaoke ! woo~ hahaha ! kecoh giler sak time karaoke. then met renny , yana , emeliya at grandlink . hahaha ! they waiting for a karaoke room . -.- liya cap aku paitao skarang . bastard . and yana , lama tak nampak kau , HI ! haha ! mcm dia baca gitu eh . hahaa .

then lepas tu we went to bazaar ! woo ~ jalan-jalan , then dah penat , kita dudok pat kopitiam . then syahsyah, suhada & shamir gerak home. kita pon continue lepak. lepak punya lepak , then kepala otak aku terpikir dengdeng .

then aku , cepedd and pipit pergi beli dengdeng untok sumer makan . Beli dengdeng pon kecoh sak . kesian makcik tu . hahaha ! makcik tu dah ckp "ada-ada je budak2 ni sumer" . hah !

beli 300g dengdeng , aku tau info tak perlu . hahaha ! tapi sedaaaaaaaap la sial !!!! hahaha ! aku sangkot pat dengdeng . -.-

After dengdeng session , we go singapore post ! amek2 gambar . atas tu la gambar2 yang kita ada . ada lagi , tapi not with me :)

Around 11.45pm , we gerak from singapore post . kita tengok train pon tak sempat , kita ramai2 naik bus ! hahaha ! sedih -.- sampai rumah around 1am gitu .

panjangkan story aku ? tau . info sumer tak perlu , tapi aku bilang je . haha !

monday I'm going bazaar again ! tapi blom confirm ah . lyshaa ajak , cakap awoii , ahboyy sumer ada . aku join je la . lama tak outing ngan brother2 jugak kan .

Apape see you on monday at Bazaar ! BYEBYE ! ;D

then lepak2 makan dengdeng , minum air . then

Did you miss me ?

2010-08-20T02:06:00.004+08:00

Hi readers ! I'm back for more action ! hahaha !

sebelom pape , I have to say I miss Mira Bella . dia suroh aku ckp -.- hahaha ! puas ? :)

the pictures above was the previous outing with my neighbourhood friends . SENTOSA !

Last minit nye plan , tetap jadi . haha ! there are like 12 people who went ? haha . last minit pon last minittttt la . hahah .

After that was NDP i think ? NDP went to marina . watch fireworks with brother2 , nyla , adik aku dan kawan2 nye . haha . & & & AT LAST NAMPAK MIRA BELLA ! hahaha ! dia punye la happy nampak aku ! rindu aku kan ? aku tau . haha ! aku pon happy nampak kau ! haha !

skarang pon dah bulan puasa . what to do ? tak keluar mana2 , only slack at sengkang . usual faces . haha ! muka legend2 pon ada ! eh syahsyah ? hahah ! lama tak nampak -.-

Met renny also. Jumper dia je , ramai orang kirim salam . hahaha ! Bagos la bulan puasa . banyak muka aku nampak . Kan bagos berbaik baik dengan sumer orang . AMIN . hahaha ! happy nye aku ! :)

Tomorrow going Bazaar . woo~ confirm best ! :) nampak , tegor okaye ! sape tegor , dapat satu dengdeng ! haha !

Ok , that's all ! aper2 nanti saya update betol2 okaye , ni just a run through . hahaha !

We'll see who has the last laugh :)

2010-07-18T20:59:00.004+08:00

sebelom pape , aku nak blg orang yang tagged pat tagboard aku yang bernama "bulldog". haha !

paikia ? aku ada cakap pe aku nak jadi paikia ? kirekan kau paikia la ni ckp orang tak paikia ? sekarang peh zaman , paikia cari duit . kalau takda duit , takda pelajaran , takda arah tujuan hidup , lagi orang tak pandang . haha . adoii . and senang kata , aku tau pat dunia ni aku tak leh buat sumer orang suka aku . aku pon tak mengharapkan . kalau aku ada menyusahkan hidup kau , aku jatoh kan paiseh ah eh . tapi masalah nye , aku tak tau kau sape . maybe kau pernah nampak aku ke ape , then kau tak suka ke ape kan . tu tak pasal ah . satu je ah aku ckp , kau pikir untok diri kau sendiri , kau agak semua orang suka kau ? tak kan . tak akan boleh pon . sumer benda ada baik dan burok nye kk . :) aku malas nak gadoh2 lagi-lagi pat blog atau tagboard . ni je aku nak ckp . tak da pape lagi nak ckp . Bye .

S - O - L - O

2010-07-16T19:10:00.004+08:00

Tgk muka aku. kimak eh ? mcm bulldog . hahaha ! ni nama nye tengah mendak pat skola -.-

Ok sorry for not updating . Korang rindu aku kan ? tau . korang sumer dah hentak2 keyboard bila tgk blog aku tak update . hahahahah ! fake -.-

ok update betol2 eh .

tadi aku tak pergi skola . nak tau asal ? pasal aku demam and batok2 .

then aku gi polyclinic . Doctor ckp tekak aku merah. then dia suroh aku kurang kan isap rokok . aku try ok doc . hahah ! ;D

then lepas tu aku gi main billard . ngan Bear , Ahtin , Naz and Azali . haha ! dah lama tak jumper dorang mahh . then lepas tu balek .

tu je ah nari aku buat . mcm budak bodoh eh . no life .

semalam jumper kim , kid and ahboyy , tapi aku balek siang . demam bro . haha ! paiseh ye kawan2 ku . hahaha .

Besok saturday , aku tak tau ape plan . ada orang ajak aku gi sentosa , BF ajak aku jumper , brother ajak aku gi Tampines . mana satu patot aku pilih ? hahah ! entah la eh . besok kita tgk amcm . hah .

tapi ni , korang nak tau benda ? BIRTHDAY AKU DAH DEKAT ! woo ~ hahahah ! tak sabar siak . On the day of my birthday , first thing aku shave bulu bawah aku . hahaha ! ok merepek . aku on aku nye birthday aku enrol lesen . woo~ (banyak berangan siak ni lahanat, padahal birthday lagi 1 bulan lebeh nak masok 2 bulan) . hahahahaha ! aku suka bebual sorang . :)

Aku dah plan siang2 motor aku color ape . haha ! Aku akan keluar kan Kawasaki KR , color white , with pink rim , and helmet evo color white . mesti cute eh aku naik motor . hahahahahahahha . dah negotiate ngan mak bpk aku , and they said OKAYE . check2 kasi aku false hope eh . ERGH ! haha .

ok , dah tu je aku nak update . Bye kawan2 , sahabat handai , teman mesra , kaki gerek , dan sekalian . ;D

Ahbeng ah !

2010-07-07T10:12:00.003+08:00

Above pic was on Saturday at Town .

Saturday was fun . After town , went to ton at whampoa . took the last bus to whampoa . Reach whampoa around 12.30 . then after that went to meet awoii , god and kana . then went to the nearest coffee shop, sit around , talk cock , smoke . abeh kita kena screen satu malam , 3 kali . whampoa banyak berok . ergh ! haha ! tak tido satu malam , kul 8 lelap mata jap , aku dah gone . hahaha . tido jap . then kul 9 si lahabau - lahabau kejot . hahaha . then kul 11am went home . went home , cannot sleep , then play laptop till 1+ pm . then paksa diri tido . kul 6 bangon , kepala pening nak mampos ! hahahaha ! mcm orang mabok keling . padahal tak -.-

then on monday, we went to BUGIS ! awoii ajak aku gi bugis . dengan ahboyy , cepedd , kid, ohlin , didi , ace , kana , iyaa , shia . ramai jugak ah . hahah . then jalan2 pat bugis . si ahboyy nak beli ape tahh . then after that gi makan ngan kid . mcm gayboy . hahaha. then baru aku ngan kid gerak jumper dorang gi tempat sheesha . gerek . hahah . BF text me ! woo~ dia bila mendak je text aku . ahahaha . baru nak cari kawan eh . hahahaha :) gigit kau baru tau . hahaha .

yesterday, dorang gi town . ajak aku . aku malas . hahahahaha . duit train aku dah habes . ni mcm aku pakai concession . nanti naik brape byk kali sampai NAIK BORINGGGGG pon boleh . hahahah.

aku rindu brother2 aku , aku rindu kawan2 aku , and especially , aku rindu BF aku ! tak terjumper jumper kita . dia busy la , aku busy la . hahaha . dua2 busy . bagos ah gitu . hahah .

ok dah , tu je . aku pon dah boring update ni . tu pasal aku tak update for the past few days . ni aku update pon pasal si monyet pat tagboard aku suroh update . hahahahaha :)

byebyeeee .

Boring

2010-06-30T11:09:00.004+08:00

ni spadey tak abes2 kacau aku . tak abes2 . hahahaha ! tapi best . dia hilangkan boring aku . hahah ! bodoh peh tayar .

Why am I doing this ?

2010-06-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

tgk gambar atas ! hahahahaha ! muka aku mcm bapok tak laku pat lorong geylang . hahaha ! ni gambar time areena cabot skola . lol . abeh kita sumer sanggop turon pagi2 lepak ngan dia . hahaha ! ingat tak areena ? aku tau kita baik . hehehe . rambot lama aku time maseh rambot panjang . YANG PENTING RAMBOT KERENTENG HARUS DIGUNTING . hahahah !

ok , tadi aku tak pergi skola , aku bangon je , mata kiri aku gone . merah rabak nye . abeh aku gi polyclinic . then doctor kasi MC . haha . mata aku berair non stop. orang pikir aku nanges . hahaha ! -.-

then lepas tu aku ngan ajaq gi Compass Point makan . banquet . YONG TAU FOO . sedap sak . first time , sumpah , tu pasal aku jakon siket . then dah makan , kita pergi rumah aku , tgk movie , ajaq main laptop aku . standard . hahaha . rumah aku dah mcm LAN SHOP . computer satu , abeh ada 4 laptop . nak main game datang umah aku . HAHAHAHA . fake . then lepas tu kita gi pondok , jumper nuttynad . then came ayu shortie, ayla, bear , eman , aciik , nabil , naufal , angah , pipit . lepak sampai police datang 2 kali sak . hahaha ! abeh sumer " eh rokok2 , buang tepi , lincah " hahahaha ! kelakar sak . lagi2 yang pegang contra kan . hahaha !

then head home after that , around 10+ . send bear home , send nad , ayu and ayla to bustop, then i home . baik eh hati aku . hahahaha !

ok dah tu je . aku dah takda benda nak ckp . haha !

ERGH !

2010-06-29T01:04:00.003+08:00

nari aku betol peh down . hahahahaha ! kimak betol . mak aku marah aku tak tentu pasal . abeh dapat tau info pasal seseorang . dah tu , aku tgh mendak lagi . hahaha ! ok , aku tak patot down . smile hairul . haha ! (:

mata aku sore eyes , tangan aku bengkak , badan aku saket . hais . haha !

and one thing , luper nak bilang . first day skola buka je kena marah ngan cikgu . asek aku je kena . that time kena buang dari class , kena counselling la ape la . adoii . takda motivation sak aku . sumpah .

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH ! FML __

hahaha ! ok , dah tu je aku nak cakap .

I will only find a Girlfriend once I got my wife , which is my Kawasaki KR ! woo~ hahahaha ! 2 more months baby , and i will get a feel of the tar on the road . haha . step kaya je aku ni -.- duit takda . cb betol . haha ! aku tak kaya . and selama ni , aku rasa kekurangan , sebab abang aku ada kereta , abang 2nd ada dua motor and tak lama lagi beli lagi satu , kakak aku soon ada kereta , bapak aku ada kereta . MEREPEK KAN ! Family aku ada TIGA kereta and TIGA motor ! alamak . puas hati kasi duit tu pat aku , belikan motor ke ape ke . hais . and aku tak mengharap kan motor abang aku pon . abang2 and kakak aku pampered jugak eh ? aku je tak . adik aku at least pampered jugak tau . mak bapak aku maseh ada jugak belikan dia barang , mcm Laptop baru , etc . aku mcm left out gitu . haha. another example, whole family aku pakai hp canggeh , high - tech , aku je hp NS ! Takpe . aku dah biasa. Life is never fair . aku tak nak hp baru pon . biar aku hidup sederhana . I can show people I'm independent . wait and see ok parents/siblings/friends ?

You don't know me yet , and you never took the time to know me .

You never took the time to understand.

Seriously, I don't see a need for a relationship anymore.

Pure bullshits.

I think it's true , money makes the world goes round (:

School reopens

2010-06-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

Time to cut down on ciggies . Been coughing lately , jantong aku peh saket . adoii . dah tu , mak aku belikan aku rokok merah pulak . padahal aku isap menthol. adoii . ni mcm ckp standby satu katil pat Singapore General Hospital . haha.

tadi aku gi yishun . jumper kid , then jumper ohlinn ngan nad , budak skola lama aku . amacam dorang leh tercampak pulak pat yishun ? hahaha . adoii . hahaha . then kita gi umah pipit . tunggu dia mandi siap sumer . then teros kita karaoke jap pat umah dia . aku nyanyi sumbang . sumpah . hahaha . pecah sia . -.-

Then lepas tu kita proceed sengkang . gi Compass Point jap , makan . then satu part ni kelakar , pipit tgh tgk cermin yang kes boleh nampak opp side , abeh opp side ada group of girls . agk2 mcm 6-7 girls ? sekali sumer pompan tu pusing tgk pipit . hahahahaha ! pipit padahal nak adjust baju dia . haha ! pipit dah mangkok , teros jalan buat hal diri sendiri . tapi serious , dorang tgk pipit . haha!

Then lepas tu proceed umah eman , lepak jap ngan naufal , eman and khai . ada la part kelakar2 nye , tapi aku tak nak buka file . EH NAUFAL AND KHAI ! hahahah! sial ah korang . abeh proceed blk 123 lepak lagi . tapi sekarang ngan cepedd , sam , nad , and satu brother cepedd . tak kenal ah . hahah ! then lepak2 . ketawa2 as usual , and home sweet home at 11pm . hahaha .

Sasuay day of mine

2010-06-27T21:45:00.004+08:00

TGK GAMBAR SEC 2 aku ! hahahahahaha ! kimak eh muka . cermin mata dah mcm attention seeker . color nak striking je . haha !

ok today's update:

went to town ! with Dan bieber , erica kazira , dayah ehh , and satu pompan ni nama noreen ke ape tah nama dia .

reached somerset at 3pm . and guess what ? dorang sampai kul 5.30 . ape lagi . aku ngan Dan pon jalan2 . then kita pikir nak tgk wayang , nak jadi gayboy jap , check2 timing wayang mcm sial . 5.45 . kimak dia . hahaha ! dah tu , kita dua macam membabi pat town dua orang , jalan dari cineleisure gi fareast . pat fareast lagi merepek . aku blg Dan aku nak beli asap . then aku try ah pat satu kedai ni . pikir muka aku dah mcm abang2 kan , so try ah . CHECK2 MINTAK I/C ! hahahahaha ! mampos . aku pon step ah "never bring i/c ah untie " hahaha ! mati . takda rokok . hahaha ! abeh aku ngan Dan pon dah mangkok , kita lek satu tempat pat luar fareast , pikir mcm mana nak beli rokok . hahaha ! stress oi . asal laaaa bdae aku lambat . sial ah . cepat laaa 18 . haha ! :) abeh dah lek2 , aku pon rasa haus . abeh aku ckp akuu nak beli bubble tea. aku beli bubble tea punya la MAHAL ! kimak betol . padahal ada sweettalk , aku luper . aku gi beli pat dalam fareast. kimak , mahal sak . abeh Dan lagi merepek , beli icecream kecik , harga 5 bucks . muka mangkok je kita dua . hahahaha !

then lepas tu , kita gi carik mangsa untok belikan rokok . stress . makan satu jam sia tu . hahaha ! then dah dapat , punye la happy kita . hahahaha ! abeh dah tu jalan gi taka , tgu tu 3 bahalol . haha ! dorang dah sampai , we go eat at 313 . haha ! laugh2 non-stop . abeh noreen punya la step gerek ngan aku . no offence ah . dia step gerek gila babi . teros ada satu part ni aku sound dia , teros diam . itating . hahaha ! dayah dah kekek2 . haha ! ape aku kesah , dia pompan ke laki . abeh dah step gerek ngan aku , nak itating ngan aku kan . padahal tak kenal -.-

then dah tu , kita jalan2 non-stop , ketawa . haha ! abeh erica ada satu part ni muka dia cute abes . sumpah . part dia pakai scarf . hahahahahah ! aku kacau dia muka mak orang . haha !

then dah abes jalan2 , we went home at 9+ . hahaha ! but overall , walaopon nari mcm bad day aku , macam je eh , tapi aku enjoy . thanks for the day , Dan , Erica , Dayah , & ermmmm , kena ckp nama Noreen ke ? ok ckp je ah . since aku baik hati. hahah! :)

Band of Brothers

2010-06-27T12:36:00.003+08:00

HI HI ! aku boring , so aku upload gambar ni . ni gambar kawan2 aku yang selalu buat aku happy . hahaha ! selalu gi town ngan dorang ah . so kalau korang nampak dorang , mesti korang nampak aku . ahahahaha ! -.- kadang2 tak ah . sebab korang pikir aku tido , berak , kencing , mandi sumer pat town pe ? tak kan ! aku ada rumah . hahaha ! so tak selalu gi town . ahahah !

aku bangon kul 9+ tadi . tido kul 2+ . chat ngan si shasha goff . dia mati2 nak convince aku yang goff kia pat luar . hahaha ! giler peh orang . haha ! abeh tadi BF online jap , abeh chat ngan aku . dia ada kuda kepang training . kuda kepang best ke . haha ! main mabok je . then she never reply , then off gitu je . sedih pe . hahaha ! takpe .

then nanti gi town . erica nak gi beli kasot ke ape tah . ahahaha ! me , dan , erica , lala , dayah ? hahaha ! mendak pe . hais . hahahaha ! takpe la ! takda plan lagi pon . (:

ok bye .

Candy shop

2010-06-26T23:39:00.003+08:00

EEEEEEEEEEEE ! muka ccb ! hahahahahah ! tgk betol2 . misai tak shave sia . kimak peh erul . hahahaha ! tapi cute kan ? kalau korang ckp tak , korang click X button pat top right korang . hahaha ! dah , yang sudah tu sudah , ni gambar lama k . erm.

ok proper update .

just now went town . as usual . saturday . town -.-

with usual faces. aku , kid , awoii , rian , spadey , and many more . ada aku tak tau nama . dan tak nak tau pon nama . hahaha ! aku suka buat hal diri sendiri . naik boring . haha !

abeh proceed to taka garden . haha ! dorang minom2 . betol peh enjoy dorang . tsk3 . and awoii sumer kata they ton , ask me along , but i REJECT ! hahahaha . baru baik demam , nak ton ape . cfm demam balek nye . hahaha !

and , dorang , wah , dengan pompan , luper aku . :(

sedih pe , aku buat hal sendiri sak dorang dengan pompan . takpe . aku goodboy. aku pikir nak jumper BF , tgu peh tgu dia peh msg or call , takda satu pon . haha . malang nye naseb aku . then aku dah takda mood , aku ckp pat dorang , aku nak balek . then bila aku dah balek , nak tau something ? BF CALL ! -.- bukan nak call siang2 tau ni makcik . ketok ngan sendok baru tau . hahahaha . ERGH !

takpe . not my day . haha !

Bestfriends ?

2010-06-25T11:11:00.002+08:00

I'm not into relationships or anyone anymore :)

And you BF , stop blaming yourself. you did nothing to me . I made that decision . I'm sorry all this while I can't be a good friend or anything . I'm sorry i can't make you happy .

I'm sorry . Idk what to say . hais .

"The song I wrote for you"

I Love You

2010-06-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

Good morning ! now is 11.38am . and i just woke up . hahaha ! teros main laptop. bukan nak tolong mak ke ape kemas rumah . dapat 10 anak macam aku , mak aku boleh pecah kepala . hahaha !

Btw , I miss Rusty Star FC (above picture) . satu-satu dah senyap , NS lain , kerja lain . sumer dah busy . Aku je tertinggal tak busy2. hahahaha !

And to bear , hope you get well soon . Tu la , nak gadoh2 lagi , kan kaki dah patah . hahahaha ! ;D

Aku nari takda plan , sape nak keluar ngan aku ? angkat laptop / mouse ! ahaha ! -.-

erm , aku rindu BF aku . aku blom give up pat dia . sape nak dia , langgar aku dulu . chey ! hahahaha ! naik boringggg .

tapi ni , korang nak tau smtg ? Ada JERAWAT pat muka aku . dua pulak tu . ccb . *sepak aku peh dahi*

nanti aku letak OXY 10 ! haha ! tak la , aku tak pakai OXY2 ni sumer . aku facial wash je . nak tau ape brand ? Neutrogena Men . FUUUUUUHHHH ! tangkap , dudok tinggi2 , standby 5-5 . hahahaha ! -.-

ok dah , tu je , aku tak tau nak update ape lagi.

Iloveyou <3

Death is Beautiful

2010-06-24T01:19:00.003+08:00

Best record : 5 sticks in 10 mins .

Currently : 3 sticks in 9 mins . slow .

Sucks

2010-06-24T00:06:00.003+08:00

Maybe I can't be the bestman to win your love.

Bye.

Up & Down , Part of the game

2010-06-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

" I don't wish to be everything to everyone , I wish to be something to someone "

Hello readers .

Currently i feel so down , idk why . I just feel like posting some random pics and post shits on my blog . tu je ah aku mampu . aku pon tak pandai sangat nak express feelings2 ni , so aku tak nak banyak ckp ah . nanti orang ckp aku ape lak kan . aku tak perlu kan attention orang ah . tapi at least have the basic respect ah . orang bebual , at least layan ah . takpe ah , aku dah biasa ah bebual sorang . sumpah .

orang ckp ape tau , hidup sorang, mati sorang .

bye.

I'm not referring specifically to anyone. Some of my friends , yes.

Open your heart, baby .

2010-06-21T18:27:00.006+08:00

Standard . Muka LAOHONG aku tu pat atas untok jadi bahan jap. hahaha ! :)

Do you know i miss you ? Yes . Do you know that i have fallen for you ? Maybe :)

That MAYBE can be a Yes once you open your heart for me, my dear.

After renny, I got no mood for love. But one girl change everything. Asal eh aku sangkot pat dia ? tak best sia . hahaha ! fake ^^ mampos dia maki aku .

hehe ! Im bored , and im missing someone . I miss you , BF . <3

She's currently overseas for 3 days. Adoii . Lama kan tu ? dia ckp tak . kan merepek dektu . hahaha ! tapi tetap sayang . huhu~

Ok , proper update. Erm.

Saturday:

Town with KAWAN-KAWAN tercinta ! hahaha ! best oi ! ;)

& got into some problems i should say , but i dont wish to elaborate.

then malam BF came . with her friends .

Dia sweet bodoh , sanggop jalan dari cineleisure to the skatepark at 313 just to jumper aku . hahaha ! tapi tak nak mengaku . itating eh dia . hehe .

then talk crap with kawan2 , lagi spadey . dia mcm cb , kacau aku . haha . aku tau la aku ni bahan :(

Then went home around 11.10. BF went home at 11.45 i think . she's sick abeh balek lambat. dah bagos tak kena jotos ngan aku . nanti aku siku 7 dia nanti teros tido . hahaha ! ;D

Sunday:

Went to orang kahwin . Woodlands . then sengkang . hahaha ! then BF berangkat gi overseas. hais .

Faster come back okaye .

aku tau aku syok sendiri . tapi ape aku kesah . hahaha ! there's always a start to something. even if she don't need me , i can always try. But if she got someone else , i guess i can't hold on to something uncertain . But holding on to it for the mean time is worthwhile. Biar pon skejap, still , better than nothing . hehehe !

IMY.

This i promise you.

Money , Money !

2010-06-17T19:27:00.002+08:00

Tgk gambar atas tu . Mcm matrep kelepeh baru naik . haha ! ni orang ckp ape tau , dudok rumah , bungkus nasi lemak banyak2 , letak dalam topi . hahahahaha ! ;D

Sorry lama tak update. Been working from monday to friday . 9am to 6pm . hais .

BUT BUT ! i love the money ;D

I miss my brothers, bestfriend, and friends .

Hais . bila dapat jumper dorang ? saturday ni ! woo~ best nye !

i need a haircut . rambot dah mcm sarang lebah. tunggu masa lebah datang banyak2 , masok rambot aku letak MADU ! hahah . tapi korang perasan one thing ? aku post , aku ketawa sendiri . mcm bodoh eh . hahaha je lebeh . -.-"

ok dah tu je , BYE .

TAKECARE !

Family always come first .

2010-06-14T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hey hey ;D

Just a random pic of me and bull.

Bullianto tak lama lagi dah buka tagging seh ! woo~

haha ! one day jumper aku ok , aku rindu muka garang kau . ahahaha ! :)

sunday:

today went out at 3pm ++ to meet ahboyy at 157D . dia ada ape event tahh . then saw aciik and nabil . then around 7++ me and ahboyy decided to go play pool . orang kaya baru ehhhh ! haha !

lepas main pool , teman si giler tu main computer jap , dia nak check tagged dia , facebook dia . mcm2 ah . haha!

then kul 10++ head to rivervale plaza , makan ngan my adek. then met iman and khai . dudok , lepak2 . then baru alek ni .

nothing much to post . bye bye !

Baby , baby , baby .

2010-06-13T10:53:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA ! tak pakai pe ? Ni barang panas eh . susah datang . cute kan ? seriously . kalau compare ni ngan erul ahbeng skarang , mana lagi cute ? nampak sangat ni kan . tapi aku skarang pon cute jugak ah , cumer tak nak mengaku je . nanti orang ckp ape kan . hahaha !

Semalam saturday aku tak keluar . tido mcm babi pat rumah sampai kul 8pm . then gi beli asap . then got home and chat ngan beybey angkong, cheha, lili berryla, ayushortie and many more. chat punya chat , sampai la kul 3.30am . then aku dah ngantok , aku tido lagi . mcm babi kan aku ? haha ! ABEH ASAL ?! ;D

Nari sunday. Abeh takda plan sia . mcm bodoh dudok umah . tgk amcm . maybe jumper awoii ahboyy . sape nak jumper aku ? ANGKAT LAPTOP / KEYBOARD ! haha ! mendak pe -.-

Mak aku suroh aku kerja sia besok . hais . suspect this week aku all the way kerja . tapi takpe ah . yang dapat duit pon aku pe . betol ? hahah ! ;D

Nanti kalau aku dah gaji , jom outing ramai2 .

aku rindu kawan-kawan ku semua :(

THE MOST KELEPEH KID ON EARTH

2010-06-13T03:15:00.002+08:00

tgk gambar secondary one aku ! hahahaha ! mcm NYAMOK KELEPEH KENA SENGAT SIAK ! ;D

korang nak ketawakan aku , korang tgk sendiri gambar2 lama korang k . haha ! takmo suka ketawakan orang je .

ni time aku sec 1 , pergi raya . haha . tangkap sachok , tapi tak menjadi . bodoh nye aku . haha !

tapi cute pe , tak leh di nafikan (:

if i got more funny photos of me , i post it aite ! haha !

P.S : Grab and Share ? go ahead .

That one easy-going guy

2010-06-13T02:14:00.002+08:00

Time check, 2:14am.

Firstly, i want to thank ayushortie for editing my blog. sweet kan dia ? tau . haha ! :)

& secondly, i want to remind all readers , you can spam me or hate me. I know my life , I know what good & bad i had done , and i don't take other people words into considerations.

Thirdly, I started to blog again because of boredom . and and ! to show people i know how to blog . chey ! hah ! padahal ayu yang tolong aku edit . bodoh peh jantan , tak tau malu .

And one more thing. Please don't associate me with renny. I don't wish to get associated with anything got to do with her. Thanks people.

Hello

2010-06-13T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone ! I'm back to blogging . hehehe .

I'm still struggling to edit this blog . because i don't know much about blogging . haha ! stupid sia me . haha !

I will do a proper post after this . WAIT AH!

Holidays

2010-02-25T18:54:00.002+08:00

Today's paper was suspected to be flying over the moon. haha ! screwed up.

BUT;

Holiday's here !

But I'm already missing some of my school mates .

Joshua, my gay partner.

Hendrick, Ahbeng.

Xuan, Ahlian.

But i know they will miss me more. Miss my irritating-ness and my crap-ness . haha !

I will miss playing pool with you guys aite !

April will be the start of school . But it's gonna be hard .

New friends, new classmates, new teachers.

How am i going to make new friends -.-

i hope i will be in the same class with one of the 3 mentioned. ;D

Live life to the fullest

2010-02-21T23:29:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow Macroeconomics paper . 2 hours . I'm not ready for it . I'm studying yet , haven't finish . -.-

This weekend i went to shop around at town .

Bought MOC shirt and Cotton on.

Bought reef slippers costing $75 , reebok shoes costing $100. i like (:

Sorry eh dan, aku capai 75 tapi kau capai 45 nye . Tak jiwe kau. HAHAHA ! next time kita capai yang 99.90 nye eh . ;D

Yesterday was with Rusty Stars. Out to town .

Planning to buy Tops, Shoes, Slippers. Got my slippers and shoes, now tops.

I surveyed what i wanted to buy. only got the reef slippers.

sunday, which is today , then i went to get that reebok. at RSH at suntec . with dan and nana . walk, talk, crap & of course, LAUGH (:

nike air max, new balance, vans common. Reebok my own style . hah !

went home around 8+ . Tired. so I slept for awhile till 10pm, then wake up, study -.-

chaoz .

True friends are hard to find (:

2010-02-08T01:22:00.006+08:00

Time check, 2:04am.

I can't sleep -.- roll here and there still cannot sleep.

This year taught me a good lesson. I realized poly friends are better than outside friends. Eventhough they don't really share much with you, they are the ones that won't hurt you. I feel like talking about friends. I'm not saying all outside friends are no good. If you have no outside friends, then you are categorized as anti-social that is suffering of autism. WEAK !

I think some friends shouldn't be trusted. Friends can be one of the biggest foes. In front of you, so good to you. Guai lanjiao. Behind you , they swear and curse you like one fucking bullet train from India. They can also gang up with others to destroy or hurt you alone, it's a matter of fact whether you can figure out yourself or not . If you figure it out , you will tend to be hurt. But if you don't know anything, you will be destroyed. They will condemn you and fuck your life upside down front back. So, i believe i shouldn't trust anyone. Trust no one. It's your battle, your life. Either you die or survive. Be selfish. Care about yourself before you can care about other people.

& I believe strongly some friends of mine are like that. They are Bullet Trains. So what ? It's just a matter of time when i get to know about their plots. Time reveals everything. & when I get to know, you better stay at home okaye ? You won't want to see blood spills. That's one good advice for you. (:

One more thing, I don't need love & care from others. Because nothing beats my mother's love and care for me. Are you my mother ? No , then please go away. And also, don't tell people to move on or you've moved on. In this world, everyone have their own choice and feelings, and pursue their own needs in life. People tend to make use of others to achieve their selfish desires or needs. Adding to the situation, you said you've moved on, but as a matter of fact, you've moved one BIG step backwards, and this step, may cause a repeat of hurtful things that you've experienced in life, that you never ever want to encounter again. I said "may". Not necessary be "always". That's one advice someone taught me and executing it in the situation as mentioned earlier. No sarcasm, no nothing. who thinks I'm referring to you, then i can't say much. (:

Prior to that, people have their own choice. Don't tell people what to do, unless you really know what to do, do you ? Don't act on your own accord. You tend to hurt others. Love is life. Sometimes you don't know you've found true love, because illusions of life is playing a whole lot of tricks on you to blind you from your true love. Figure this trick out, and you will be the happiest man/woman. So it means, Life blinded Life. Amazingly, this world is actually fair. (:

I've given up .

Thank you for everything.

Focusing on my studies & my riding license this year.

1. Family
2. Friends
3. Studies

Did i mention girls ? NO (:

Wish you were there

2010-02-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

Back. From orchard. Thanks mama for everything (:

How i wish you were here .

This song sings my life.

2010-02-06T12:23:00.000+08:00

Di dirimu aku menemukan
Yang mencintaiku
Yang menyayangiku
Di dirimu aku ketakutan
Kau biarkanku
Kau tinggalkanku

Bila kamu tak lagi denganku
Ku tak tahu apa tuk jalani hidupku
Bila memang kau pergi dariku
Ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

Mengertikah kau siang malamku
Dan tangis tawaku
Kau semua hidupku
Pandang aku pandanglah hatiku
Aku tak mampu melangkah tanpamu

Bukan ku tak punya harga diri
Tapi dirimu begitu berarti
Kaulah nafasku engkau harga diriku
Mengerti aku.

Harga Diriku - Wali Band .

Without you

2010-02-05T21:44:00.003+08:00

Somethings can't be force.

My principle is easy, "In life, you have to try things out, before you can decide whether to continue with it or walk out on it"

I don't need anyone. Having friends and family around me are the happiest thing I can ever imagine.

Thanks for the advice to those who has helped me a lot.

No woman, no cry. No God, I die.

Behind those smiles

2010-02-04T19:16:00.004+08:00

"If you're willing to wait, I'm willing to accept"

I'm willing, but are you?

What have I done . What have I done . What have I done .

Where are you ?

2010-02-03T23:32:00.004+08:00

I got no one to talk to , so i shall post it here. readers, please bear with me .

Aqilah

Every day , every night ,

every minute , i check my handphone .

I've always been waiting for your text messages this few days, but I guess I'm just dreaming .

A guy with big dreams , but zero outcome . None .

i feel so stupid . i feel so lost . i feel so helpless . i feel so hopeless .

I'm still waiting for you, right here, and I have not gone anywhere .

But you left me . Is it me or you that is changing?

If it's me , I'm sorry . I should've known. I'm ignorant . I'm egoistic .

But after knowing you , I tried to put aside my ignorance and ego .

It took me courage to say IMY everyday , and each time you don't care, I feel ashamed of myself. In my mind, "what am i doing?"

I've lost everything . dignity . pride . & especially love and care .

You may be thinking of me somewhat or somehow at the other side , and so i am thankful if you are doing so .

This mind can't forget you , can't let go of you .

I don't see the reason why i should lose you.

I'm 18 this year , I got feelings , and I know very well how I'm feeling now.

Now there is no more time to fool around . I've been studying , I've been going religious classes at night . I'm sincere in all my good deeds done. I don't want people to look down at me .

But I think there's no use of me doing all those , because even some one i love very much , don't show her care & concern for me anymore.

Problems keep coming in , & I feel like running away from them .

Why others don't get me ? Why are they pressuring me ? & Why are you doing this to me ? What have I done ? Why are you torturing me like this ? Why I feel so deeply hurt everytime i see the way you reply me? You may not trust my words , but I don't mind . I believe actions speaks louder than words.

I just need someone to talk to . But you're not with me . I can't bear to see you leaving me .

Everytime we meet , I find it hard to say goodbye .

Everytime i switch on my laptop , i touch the screen .

Everytime i received a msg , I hope it was from you .

Everytime i'm alone , i think of you .

I don't need you to believe me or trust me , I just need you to be with me .

Ok thank you readers , bye .

Good things come to an end.

2010-02-03T18:04:00.005+08:00

Where we came from, that is where we will go.

When i get my bike license, i will buy a bike .

When i get my bike, i will ride it till i die .

8 more months.

To be with you

2010-02-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you.

This game

2010-01-29T18:26:00.003+08:00

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity. - Henry Van Dyke

The music of your affection
Surrounds the air I breath
The wonder of your passion
My soul will never leave.

Within my heart it glides
As we dance the dance of love
These moments with you
I could never have too many of.

Your kiss to me tonight
Soft as an angels wing
Came out through my lips
In this verse I sing.

I know you're out there waiting
I hear your voice away so far
And the beauty of your words
The distance cannot mar.

Our bond it only strengthens
And as the nights go by
I feel your arms around me
As I gaze up to the sky.

The smile upon my lips
It will surely never die
As I'm waiting here for you
Until you're by my side.

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Love is strong, love is true.
I'm waiting for it, longing for you.
The moon smiles, I see your name in the stars
But, I can't read it, it's still too far.

Destiny holds me in the palm of her hand,
I need relief from this hot burning sand.
I want to hold you, feel your touch,
I've waited so long, this is all too much.

Sweetness abides in the clouds up above,
Carry me there on the wings of your love.
The warmth that comes from the one you love so,
In the dead of winter can make flowers grow.

I have a treacherous road to travel,
Before the mysteries of life I unravel.
But, you'll be with me forever, your love in my heart,
Til the day we meet and from there never part.

ok i'm bored, bye.

I hate this feeling

2010-01-25T00:06:00.005+08:00

"For, you see, each day I love you more, today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow."

hello , yesterday was no good. bad mood all the way. some people had to spoil my mood. and others rub it in . and the headache is killing me. feel like punching people faces. but after that , i went home with aciik. only he knows my feeling, only he understands me . sape lagi nak paham prasaan aku ? walked home, alone, like a lonely boy -.- then msg qiqi , but she like don't want to text me , so decided not to text .

at 12+ to 1 am then we text each other. that was like for awhile only.

today? met boboy, kecyk, dann, cepedd. Dann say i look so moody. i told him i was sick and restless, plus no mood. lately i have been thinking of her, but idk why, i always think negative. then around 9 met mondok, he busy eating durian , slacked with him awhile. then went home.

my negative thoughts : do you need me? am i an option to you? am i worthy of you? is it worth the wait?

stupid negative thoughts running through my mind.

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone."

Qiqi Baby (:

2010-01-20T23:52:00.002+08:00

HEY HO !

went to school as normal. was late by half an hour.

teacher kept picking on me, idk why. haha. but it's okaye , i'm a goodboy. no fighting (:

then after school, head home, no plan mah.

then i asked qiqi whether she free, then we decided to meet each other . I went to simei mrt, met her with her friends.

She calls me a matrep non-stop. padahal sendiri minahrep. haha ! :D

went to bedok, accompanied her go buy egg and bread. then she went home awhile. slacked with her under her void deck for 2.5 hours, and she went home at 6.45pm. So after that, i headed to hougang. met ahhtin, mondok, nazri and zaid. talk crapped, laugh.

have been msging qiqibaby, and we also talked crap (:

i miss her, ok bye.

This love is different.

2010-01-20T00:43:00.004+08:00

Changes are part and parcel of living. It's just a matter of fact whether people can accept the changes. Everyone changes including me. And I'm sorry if i changed too fast or i changed into someone that other people dislike. It's impossible not to change. If there is no changes, we are still cavemen.

Slacked with boboy, kecyk, naz, ahhtin and zaid. Talked. And boboy told me, "No women no cry". I once believed that, but when i get to know you, it changed my perspective of life. It changed my way of living. I learned how to appreciate people. I learned how to care and love better.

I've never loved someone this much.

Why am I still waiting for you? People asked me to wake up and find other people. But I'm stubborn. I don't know why I still wanna wait for you.

I will wait even though I know the pain of waiting.

"Feel bad? Shake it off, and Move on"

You're just different. Simply different.

Smile

2010-01-16T00:48:00.001+08:00

i shouldn't be thinking negative. i don't want end up hurting myself or even you.

im boredddd . and i can't sleep . handphone so silent lately. know why ? because i put on silent mode . -.-

ok bye .

Sick and tired of this

2010-01-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

im fucking bored and down .

On my mind right now is , " why do you care so much when she don't? "

and the answer is simple , i love you more than you love me , you don't care whether i exist or not , and you don't need me to care for you. While i'm here, waiting like one fool, while you're there with bunch of friends, enjoying or what shit , i don't give a damn.

People say i'm too kind. and i beg to differ. I'm not kind, but is because i love you .

you just don't get it .

what's on my mind ?

2010-01-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

Time check - 12:13 am

i'm not sleepy laaaa. cheebye cheebye. why can't sleep .. ?

tomorrow school at 10 am, so waking up at 9 am ++ .

today:

went to school at 3pm until 5pm. went to sk meet bear. eat at KFC, and bear "come where? CUM ON YOUR FACE ! "

laugh and crap with him all day . "kita mana pernah betol" haha !

then met ajaq and nad. talk, laugh, lame jokes. as usual -.-

then off home. at hougang, met ahhtin and naz . sit awhile and lanjiaowei about someone. haha ! sial uhhh ahhtin . prangai pusing-pusing bapak kau sampai terkencet ! (:

then off home at 11 pm .

currently missing dearest qiqi baby . love, love . haha ! she likes to say " shuuuuuut up :D " to me -.-

cute right she ? i know ^^

"apa salahku? apa salah ibuku? hidupku, dirundung pilu."

She's the best, so don't mess with the best.

If you mess with the best, the beast will come after you.

novela kita ?

She's my sweetest drug

2010-01-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

Heyho havello !

Bored. Know why ? cause Qiqi Baby can't text me, and i can't sleep.

I've been sleeping late these days. I dun know why. School was okaye, Love was busy with school, understood.

Have not been meeting her, but what can i do ? wait and wait and wait and wait .

I don't even know if she's okaye or not over there, if she's been fooling around or not . haha ! i doubt she does that . i trust her (:

Exams just now was shit . woke up early despite sleeping late. i dun wan to be late for exams , that's why. after school went home, changed , cut hair , and went to meet anieyra, bear, rainy, nad, nana, and zafirah. i don't really know them so i don't talk much to them. but with nad, anieyra and bear , we talked crap. as usual :D can't wait to meet sugarbaby !

byebye !

I've been missing you, have you ?

Biarkan Aku Jatuh Cinta

2010-01-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

Missing

2010-01-10T21:28:00.005+08:00

I miss my sugar baby up there . haha . cute ah she ? i know ^^

Currently texting with Qiqi Baby, and chatting with Eissha. Qiqibaby said i will be meeting her only on this coming sunday. it's like 7 days to go ? wahhh , gonna miss pinching her cheeks . :D

just now went to meet aciik, nad, bear, naufal, and nabil.

AYOOOO BEAR AND NABIL ! FILEEEEE ! :D

Tomorrow school starts at 10am , and confirm boring . standard , monday blues.

school ends at 5pm. no plan after that. go home lor. see how.

okaye that's all , byebyee.

I don't give a damn about what people gonna say, as long as she's with me, I'm happy.

Qiqi Baby <3

Karma

2010-01-07T19:38:00.006+08:00

hello.

just got back from pasir ris. met nad and the rest. slacked but in the end , got home early.

it's not that i feel i wasted my time, no .

i will never waste my time as long as i get to meet you.

but this gut feelings of mine tells me i'm not worth for you.

you left me without saying goodbye.

not even a smile, not even a wave, not even a handshake, not even the word "goodbye".

my head is spinning and i'm gonna fall sick soon, so i lazy type long posts.

guess i'm done here.

friends make the world colorful, but love makes the world beautiful

i love you, and will always do . (:

aqilah <3

lost ?

2010-01-06T22:14:00.005+08:00

school just now. for project. and took some pics with webcam. bored mah.

then went to meet naufal at his crib. slacked blablablaa . and then she text-ed me cause she just top-up.

what am i feeling now?

i feel so empty.

i feel so lost with no sense of directions.

why?

idk.

by the way , I love you (:

School

2010-01-06T14:48:00.004+08:00

Me and Joshua Ho(gayboy)

I'm currently in school.

with Joshua Ho Jin Peng.

he say i very lame and gay.

Fun fun fun :D

2010-01-05T22:42:00.005+08:00

I met this pretty girl just now . At bedok. -.- straight after school. reach there around 4.45pm. then met her at MacDonald . walk , walk . we don't know where to walk , we sit at mac . haha.

i stare at her face until 6+ pm . i find her damn cute and sweet . haha . the way she talks is so cute . hahaha :D "bowing ! " hehs . she say the word boring so cute. tongue short . hahaha . -.-

then we went to eat at KFC . babygirl sat there msg-ed with nuttynad . haha. ask her eat dun want , then in the end tapao home the food . after eating , we went to sit around. then babygirl wanted to buy plaster . lols :D how cute la she . then the two of us go find plaster , like so difficult . in the end bought at Cheers. (:

Then headed to her house there , go buy food for her mummy. met her sister, anna . go NTUC -.- buy cereal and milk . haha . okaye , then babygirl sent me near to the bus stop. how sweet uh she ? hahaha :D

currently missing her , cause her prepaid low . hais ..

meet up again dearest . soon .

Iloveyou.

boredddddd

2010-01-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

Bila mataku terpejam,
Dirimu akan menjelma,
Apakah tanda semua,
Adakah ini cinta?

Pertama kali kita berjumpa,
Pertama kali bersua muka,
Kau memberi senyuman,
Yang istimewa.

Mengapa bila engkau tiada,
Hatiku bagai tiada menentu,
Walaupun kita sering berjauhan,
Aku tahu,
Kau sering dia hatiku.

Mungkin dah tertulis,
Dalam Novela Cinta,
Di dalam hatiku,
Hanya dirimu yang satu.

Hanya dirimu yang aku mahu,
Yang tersirat hanyalah namamu,
Senyuman manismu,
Menggoda hatiku,
Sering terharu,
Mendengar suaramu.

Segala luka yang menyakiti,
Dengan segera kau menggobati,
Naluri hatiku,
Mulai Berkata,
Sanggup ku berkorban,
Demi Cinta Kita

sugar baby <3

2010-01-04T21:50:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry i doubt or question your love.

I'm a guy with no confidence.

:(

it's not that i want you , but i need you .

One day you'll ask me,

"which is more important to you,

me or your life"

I'll say, "My life"

and you'll go and leave me

without knowing

that you are my life , baby.

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love. - Albert Einstein

Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that. ~Michael Leunig

They tell a story of me .

Pictures

2010-01-04T15:08:00.004+08:00

school boy :D

stupid face

haha . bored -.- took pictures with webcam . hahaha .

IMY

2010-01-04T13:58:00.004+08:00

Hey.

I'm in school and yes , i'm bored. Sugarbaby's first day in school, and she have been busy i guess? cos she haven't text me . but i will be waiting . cos i'm willing :D

first day is boring . i got presentation , and i'm wearing formal -.-

i don't like but have to .

Presentation was a mess, because my group wasn't ready and we are the first group . chao chee bye .

i feel like punching someone's face. hah !

AKU PAHLAWAN KAPAL siol ! mau brani , mau lai .

ok enough , i don't really have the mood to blog , but since i got nothing to do , i will .

idk what else to type . erm .

am i losing you over there ?

i can wait . but till when ?

i have been thinking too much.

imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy. imy.

Bored and missing you

2010-01-03T23:29:00.004+08:00

My stupid face with specs -.-

I miss my long and coloured hair . hahaha . im bored -.- should i keep long hair or just stay with my short hair ?

Novela Kita <3

2010-01-03T22:41:00.006+08:00

That Beautiful Girl , Qiqi Baby <3

Hey ho ! Erul here. ;D

I want to update because i feel like typing.

currently , i'm missing some people . here's the photo of them :

This cute girl named qiqibaby.

aciik , my best bro.

Manchoy

I'm still sms-ing this sugar baby . -.- yesterday , met up with sugarbaby and i sang a song titled "novela kita" I made for her, with the help of aciik . She sat beside me and looked down, with no expression. I thought she was crying when i was singing "Novela Kita" . then when she looked up , i ask her "cair eh?" lol. she dun want admit she cair . irritating . hahahaha. -.- irritating tapi sayang . hahaha. that what me and sugarbaby usually say to each other. haha . just now we msged each other and i melt when she said this . hahaha. " HAIRUL. NURUL AQILAH RINDU DAN SAYANG HAIRUL " . haha . sweet or what ah this girl ? bite her . hahaha . <3 ok enough about love .

aciik just booked in . no one can play the guitar for me again . -.- for another 5 days . and guess what ? my mummy say our family is moving house to sengkang . dekat ngan block bear . block 132 , tingkat 7 . she say tak jadi pasir ris , cause rumah tak lawa . haha , cerewet . btw, i cant wait to get my license , so can meet babygirl easier :D

ok lazy type , chalo.

The Song About Love , specially for you .

Work

2009-11-22T11:30:00.004+08:00

I miss these people :(

ALL GONE

Aciik , Areena , Erul , Boboy .

Hello people ! hairul here . before that , i would like to thank my pariah , name syahida faiqah , for updating the blog for me . haha (:

Yesterday was 21/11/09:

Happy Birthday to Pariah . :D hahaahah . and she mcm paham , say she at australia . smack baru tau . heh . yesterday i went to work . first day . with nazri . woke up at 5am , wash-up and left for work at 6am . took the first bus , then go hougang int , and took the train down . nazri was so noisy along the journey . idk why he like so excited . hahaha ! maybe because got me what . :D then work till 3pm , then manager told me , i would be working again , at 6pm . i was like so tired , but i agreed . then went to farrer park , ate prata with nazri and zaid . around 5.15pm , i went back to clarke quay to work . AGAIN . but this time i was alone and i feel so tired + wasn't feeling quite well . after work , met matiin at his workplace , then singgah mustafa centre that was nearby. we had fun (: me and matiin wanted to get a remote control car . so that we can play racing . hahah :D childish , but fun . mustafa centre banyak kasot !!! they should change the name . instead of mustafa centre , should be The Heaven of Shoes . ok, then head home at 11.15pm . took the bus instead of MRT . cos wanted to slack longer . hahaha. then got home at 12midnight (:

Today is the 22/11/09:

today i got no plans . i think go lepak only , at sengkang (: that's all . will be updating soon :D if i never update , my pariah will update for me . hehs .

21st November 09 ^^

2009-11-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

Hi dudettes/babes ^^
This is so not Hairul,I'm just someone who's birthday is todayyyyy ^.^ HAHAHAHA.
Yayyyyyy me! :D Happy Birthday to meeeee!
Anyway he's the second to wish me, ha ha ha ha random.
Back to Hairul,he's lazy to update this dead blog of his. Wait, read this.....

ђairulęrul [ ĸ ] ϊ [ α ] fеϊçĥϊ ™ says:
edit kan gambar skali eh ?
HAHAHAHA
alar
boleh laaaa
edit kan gambar
then post at my blog
hahaha
then you wanna write ape , tu your busines
haha

See that! Tsk tsk tsk, I'm kind enough to agree and be kind to him. Today je :P Hahaha!
Ohhhh & how's mua editing? Nice kan kan kan? Oh hey, editing kay, not the faces HAHAHA :D
By the way, whoever knows the meaning of pariah, tell me asap eh thanks. B-)
Hahahhaa!
Anyway, don't mind my crapshit talking yo, Hairul gave permission whaaaat, proof is above!
"then you wanna write ape , tu your busines"
Huahuahuahua! Kay ah kay bye, long enough already.
Byeeeeeee, don't forget to wish me (those who haven't) HAHAA NO SHAME AH.
:P

Kia Feichi

2009-10-24T11:51:00.003+08:00

Havent been updating . i know it's long dead . haha ! lazy update la. many things happened , and happening .

Been going to court for quite a number of times . Manchoy went in , Casper went in , Pipit going to . who's next ? me ? hahahaha !

i miss my brothers . especially tangkis aku . Boboy Kia Feichi oi ! haha !

i got nothing to post .

Btw , happy birthday to Siti Nor'aini Bte Homaidi . hah !

And 2 more days to Ummu Shukriyah Bte Azman 's birthday . haha ! tulip oh tulip !

[A]lways [P]roviding [K]indness (:

Saya Q!

2009-09-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

Hi,I'm clumsy girl(figure out my real name yourself ^^v).I'm updating for this lazy bum.He's turning 17 soon so Happy Advance Seventeeth manzxzxzx!See? I'm nice.

He say he wanna shit.Information tak perlu yaa cik.Today Hari Rayeeee!
I wanna wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Rayeeeeee!(on behalf of him -.-)
Haiyaaa,I'm such a nice yet clumsy girl.Hahahaha!
Okay best bye.

Pictures of you

2009-09-06T01:07:00.006+08:00

Manchoy & Boboy

i love my people !

so long nvr post already so here's the latest post eh . so far nothing much happen . except going geylang with brothers . yesterday play pool with boboy , manchoy , fida , farah , hairi , aiis , bear . haha ! then go geylang after that . met the rest . walk here and there , nothing to do , slack , go toilet every 10 mins with boboy . he take aircon uh . haha ! burger ramly shiok btw . (:

i can't think so i can't type . short post uh .

bye fcukers .

All the way .

2009-08-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

went to ECP and take my pay . haha ! since last week i forgot to take waddd. haha. then around 6+ head down to geylang . met manchoy and the rest . hard uh to find seat . kalinawe chaochiwe . haha ! somemore it's so humid ah that area . haha !

makan at haig road there .

haha ! but now i can't upload the photo(s) . (you can read the word with the "s" or without the "s" . up to you .) blogger got problem . bodoh . haha !

Currently :

chatting with a chick . haha ! her name is ummu shukriyah bte azman . and she's damn annoying . hahaha ! maybe becos she miss me . hahah ! she said "partly correct ;)" haha! samdol dia .

idk what to post actually . being forced by chick . haha !

- "you're a nice girl . but i'm scared that i'm not worth for you"

Fear me

2009-08-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

ok today i went to CP . met ajaq and Fah and syawal . and before that got two girls there . and i asked ajaq to ask for number . he was like 50-50 . then Fah came, and coincidencely , they were friends . Fah asked that girl whether she can give her number to me. then she agreed . :)

she got a nice name , and a nice smile . aww . haha !

Asyiqin (:

then i taught Fah on some maths qns . haha !

then went home .

thats all . i lazy post .

Atainakum

2009-08-28T00:06:00.003+08:00

hello .

today had my accounting paper . i screwed it like i said . -.- im so gonna retake the exam . tsk . after exam , went to play pool . with drick & josh . i won hendrick and joshua at 9-ball pool . hahaha ! but for a while only . then drick pawn me . as usual . but i had fun . today was the last day before our holiday . im so gonna miss them & the fun we usually have . hahaha ! ok we played until 4.30 pm . then went home . then got my contact lens & head home . again .

then wait for what ? BUKA ah !

after buka , went terawih . blablabla . boring post . i know . because i'm bored . zzz . went to study spot with usual peeps . but i didn't study . because my exams were over .

ok that's all .

chaloz .

accounting , show me mercy .

2009-08-27T01:10:00.003+08:00

tmrw/today is accounting paper . but i'm still awake here . i'm scared . hah ! oh well , just pray hard the paper won't be so tough . if not , i will fail . -.- i just came back from terawih & went to study with usual people . ahhtin wasn't there . haha ! yogurt aku mana ? kau letak pat cina mampos peh coffin ? hah . suar .

accounting's gonna be a nightmare . i swear . i need motivations or support . hahaha ! but i got no source of them . err . clumsy girl mugging i think . nvm , forget about it .

people come & go , and they change .

my head spinning . after this last paper of mine , i'm gonna freaking play pool and show drick and joshua i will pawn them . haha ! since that time i wasn't on-form . -.- i try uh eh .

ok go sleep . chaloz .

Peek-a-boo ! (:

2009-08-26T17:53:00.000+08:00

hello .

yesterday:

yesterday went to study with joshua in school . study until 4 then go CP meet naufal & gang . haha ! went to meet them at library . saw many faces . syawal , ajaq , naufal , megat , mira , izzati . haha ! study awhile then talk crap with them . then bear seramsejuk came . abang botak luhhh . huhuhu ! HAHA ! woo garang . then after that around 6.30pm went to int and took 156 home with izzati . but she alight first . haha !

then night , went terawih at al-mawadah with ahhtin , mus , naufal & ajaq . haha ! gerek or what ? then went lepak2 jap . then around 11 i reached home . after that , i took my notes and went to study with zaid , hariz and naz . tiring day but its ok . i was half-asleep studying . -.-

then 12midnite ahhtin sms , ask me go his house . then went there and teach him maths skejap then talk nonsense . haha ! i get to meet clumsy girl (: thats the best part . haha ! ahhtin ask me sms clumsy girl , tanya "abg dah tido ? check kan . " and i did . haha ! then clumsy girl came into the room and saw me . she was like " -.- " hahaha ! how cute !!!! hahaha ! she gave me that stupid face . haha ! then after that i went home around 2 am . then slept .

today:

today was horrible . i screwed my microeconomics paper . i was like " wtf ? FORGET already !! " . i lost around 20 marks ? that's alot laaaaa . alamak ! -.- confirm fail . stupid hairul . and tommorrow i got Accounting paper . can't understand a shit . i failed before , which i got 5 out of 40 ? WTH la . kill myself . hahaha ! fuck life .

that cute girl (:

2009-08-25T11:33:00.004+08:00

ok i just woke up . it's 11.34 in the morning and i never go to school to study . maybe later then study .

yesterday called clumsy girl at 12.50am . haha ! she don't want her phone bills to melambung , so she ask me call her . haha . can i say she is talkative ? hahahahaha ! but she is cute though . the way she talk & the way she behave . haha ! & she asked me to change my contact list of her , as " :D - clumsy girl " . haha ! & i did (:

talk and talk until 2am then i slept , and she slept too . on the phone . hahahaha ! don't snore eh girl . haha ! woke up for sahur then back to sleep . haha !

i haven't had my shower and i'm waiting for clumsy girl to text me . and it's been awhile since i last met her . come onnnnnn . i wanna meet her . haha !

siket lebih kurang halal (:

perangai GI JOE

2009-08-25T00:41:00.002+08:00

ok im bored so another post won't kill uh .

i wasn't doing anything since just now . chat and listen to songs . and my clumsy girl msging me (: can i say you're damn hilarious ? haha ! even when im so fucking sad and down here , you still can make me smile ? haha !

NEA

2009-08-24T22:50:00.004+08:00

hello world .

today is my stats paper . & i screw it i guess . i lost 15 marks just like that ? the paper was a horror la . section A 20 marks, section B 40 marks and section C 40 marks . i lost my 15 marks at section C . tsk .

then went to play pool with joshua & drick . i wasn't in the mood today , pissed with the exam paper . this cause me to play off-form today . hendrick ask me "hairul , why you today off-form sia ? all the balls you hit all miss and you did many miss cue" . i was like "idk, i really dun know" .

but fortunately , drick & joshua are good brothers ah . they know im fasting so im tired & moody , and they did not disturb me that much . they can see i wasn't in the mood today . haha . sorry uh guys . but i started to feel happy when she msges me (: she said she wasn't training , hahahahaha ! that clumsy girl .

then at night , went terawih . still msging clumsy girl . haha ! then his bro disturb her , cos he was with me at the mosque . hahaha ! PONTIANAK ! (:

you made my day .

that clumsy girl i used to know .

bye people .

my head spinning .

2009-08-24T00:18:00.003+08:00

today nothing much . went to study with naufal and ajaq at CP library . then came Fah kentoad & her kawan . hah ! go to al-mawadah with Fah & Ajaq . took porridge . -.- haha ! they ask me take for them but in the end , i didnt . they took themselves . haha ! then went back to CP and meet naufal again . study awhile then go home at around 6.25 pm . (:

then at night terawih . after terawih , went to study with nazri , hariz and zaid . until 12.20 pm . ok nothing much .

my head is spinning . statistics are killing me . i dun understand Topics E, F and G . topic on anova especially . im gonna screw the paper tomorrow . :(

i feel so down but it's ok , life sucks .

bye readers .

work work !

2009-08-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

saturday .

today is the first day of our fasting month . and sadly , i got to work .from 2-10pm . so i buka at my work place . ate nasi goreng & satay ! hahah ! ( asaaaaaaal satay ... ) 100 plus shiok ah ! haha .

i was pretty tired at work just now . idk why . thinking about my exams , about people , and other things . im thinking too much .

thanks eh Ray for . . .

& walked to the bus stop from ECP . alone . miserable eh ? hah !

then took 43 home . reached at 11.30 i think and here i am .

ok bye people . (:

Principle of management .

2009-08-21T16:14:00.002+08:00

ok just now had my POM paper . 2 hours duration . i left many blanks despite studying . i lost around 14 marks . and that's alot . the paper was 100 marks . slept at 3 in the morning and woke up at 7.30 just now , it was like 4 hours of sleep only . but it's ok .

after the paper , went to play pool with joshua & hendrick . joshua left early . me & hendrick played 9balls . training for my spin shots & handling snooped balls . first two rounds, i won , then hendrick conquered for about 5 rounds . then last round , i win him . hahaha !

then went home , and sit in front of my laptop , & post this thing .

& to spammers : spam all you want , because my blog says "speak your mind" . it's not good to keep things to yourself ok spammers , especially if the spammers lack of love from their parents & their friends despising them . i feel sad for them . they need attentions . sorry my blog doesn't provide attentions . (: sorry eh spammers . i like the way you all see things . so pessimistic . but i'm optimistic . different world .

You'll never change what's been & gone .

2009-08-21T00:57:00.003+08:00

today's great . (:

went to study with joshua & hendrick for tomorrow's paper. POM sucks and i'm so gonna screw it . I don't want to retain or even retake that module laaa ! ok drop it . then went to play pool . haha ! i won joshua 3 times in a row . haha ! sad him , but then, i let him win he last round . good friend huh ? haha ! hendrick as usual , always win us . only 1-2 times can win him , then all the way he win .

then went home, changed and went to takraw . long time never takraw . played until 9.15pm then head home with matiin . got home , took my notes and some snacks , go down to study with nazri, hariz & zaid . haha ! and here i am posting this shit .

later i continue studying until 3am i think . see my mood eh . haha ! tired , but must tahan . tomorrow paper . :( scary siaaaa !

; ihateyou . & i mean it . you suck . (:

bby are you down down down

2009-08-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

hello wello ! (:

first thing first , our songs . guess you've forgotten . but nvm , i will keep playing these songs over and over again .

[untitled]

ok just now went to study in school . joshua and me only . then after that , head down to orchard find joshua's monthsary presents for his girl . hahaha ! had a hard time with him . before that we watched a movie , "ORPHAN" . scary shit . hahaha ! i was like closing my eyes for a few times during the violent scenes . haha ! joshua was laughing at me but i likeeeee . hahaha ! then around 630pm met his girl at PS. then i went home .

went to ngaji today . (: alhamdullilah .

Edit: & thanks once again . (: you left just like that , but i don't expect you to give me any reasons because i don't need it . thanks eh . alot .

once bitten, twice shy .

bye motherfcukers .

4164771968

2009-08-18T19:35:00.006+08:00

i still don't know how to put a song on my blog . haha ! nevermind . no one cares .

today i went to study with joshua at school . he said 10am but he came at 11 am . then at 1.30pm went to meet topal and bear at CP . topal studying . at HC, we wrote something on Shakinah's wall using fared's acc . hahahaha ! (fared , check kau peh wall . bukan idea aku eh , idea topal . celaka dia ) hahah ! then pegi jumpa ajaq, megat , nabil at usual place . then go nabil's house , makan . hah ! then home sweet home .

yesterday , at 12.30am , called nurul . haha ! boring mahh . long time nvr call her , so i feel like calling her ah . then talk talk until 1.33am . hah ! nurul, we exceed 3mins so next time i will call at 12.33am . (: had fun talking to her . get well soon eh nurul .

The numbers above state everything .

Don't go further .

2009-08-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

hello wello .

today :

went to school . lecture was boring . joshua was late . haha ! he never even go lecture . ( as usual ) then go pool-ing . blablabla . lazy post today .

& i've got to stop missing you . i really do . you don't need me anymoreee .

My primary school teacher used to say : feel bad ? shake it off , and move on . i can , i will , i shall overcome . (:

I want school !

2009-08-17T01:46:00.002+08:00

I'm not sleepy so i want play around with my blog . i think my blog should be OK ah for a guy . I lazy go make my blog pretty2 like others . haha ! i feel as if when i blog, i'm talking to myself .

Tmrw school . As usual, class at 10am , lecture , sit in the lecture hall and rot . haha ! i want go school thou . (:

untitled

2009-08-17T00:25:00.001+08:00

do you know that imy ? you never text me for quite some time but i will wait and wait till you do . i've read your blog but i don't wish to read it anymore . you got your bby but im here like a fool waiting . hah ! im a failure for sure . you're happy with your life so i should be happy too . (: goodluck in whatever you do becos if you were to fall one day , i'll try to be there for you . no promises .

untitled .

It's 12.25am in the morning but i still can't sleep . hah ! life really suck la . now i know the fun of having a blog . (: when you're bored , you can blog ! hah ! but i don't really know about changing the blogskin .

and and i love this picture :

joshua says he looks tall , but the truth is ...

hahaha ! my first time blogging . i don't know anything ! (:

2009-08-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

people blog, so i also want try . like fun like that . but the thing is, i don't know anything . i don't know how to add tagboard . HAHA ! lifesucks and then people die , so why bother so much about living . (: